Drums pounding in my head,
I wish I was elsewhere instead.
It's all about cheap thrills
May as well go pop some pills.

I'm longing for yesterday
Living life my own way.
It's less stressful you know
Without you dragging me low.

It's your way or the highway
But the highway is nice today.
At least I'll be driving my own car.
And on my own, I know I'll go far.

My son is my main concern.
You'll be next, if you wait your turn.
I don't care if you go sook
As this home is *my* nook.

I won't take it out on myself anymore
Its petty, useless shit for sure.
I know you don't want me to,
But I do it when I'm upset with you.

Regardless of what you say
I know you don't care anyway
Coz it's actions that speak
And yours leave me feeling bleak.
I'd laugh or cry you know
But then all my other emotions would show
And I'd rather do and feel nothing
Than feel my heart breaking

I gave my heart and my soul
I gave him my whole
I loved him without lie
I never stopped to ask why.

Oh it's a bitter taste
Watching your trust go to waste
Seeing a beautiful thing
Exposed as an ugly sin.

How is it possible to deceive
One who in you does believe
Without a measure of guilt?
Just thrust in that knife to the hilt..

You accuse everyone of being fake
Yet you strew misery in your wake
Two faced as the worst politician
Multiple hearts at once you petition

You screwed up your life.
For a few moments of pleasure
Lost, three times over, yourself a wife
And everything else you may treasure.

Tears streaming down my face
Driving at a mad pace,
There's an urge inside
Telling me off the edge to ride.

Why live? It doesn't matter
I'm just the mad hatter
Who is pretending to be okay
Just plodding thru each dreary day

No one really cares.
Why should they, they have theirs
Their own troubles with which to deal
Their own pains to heal.

...

Come when I want you
Leave when I'm through
I love you, you say
Then act an entirely different way

How is it possible to feel
Both wanted and rejected
How is it possible to heal?
It's something rather perfected.

I don't want to live this way
My life this way to stay.
I'm fucked beyond belief
I'm stressed beyond relief.

I'd rather wear myself into the ground
Be buried under a mound...
Than deal with this anymore.
I'm so broken to the core.