They say I need to move on and let it go
But how do I when these feelings won't stop their flow?
All these quotes say it so perfectly
Making simplicity out of absurdity

But they're mere words on the screen
I'm stuck in my head, badly wanna scream
Need something to do, can't do nothing
Dunno what, just know I'm busting

So to pass the time, I dream up many a scene
About where it works out, without them mean
But reality is a bitch slap to my mind
These emotions are so difficult, I find.

I'm listening to Celtic Woman on repeat
They're great songs; I'm grateful I got a seat
At their concert, with him by my side
But now I've got this pain I can't hide

Waking up and remembering that it's all gone
I dont know if I'll ever get it back, and forever is so long

So I'm sitting here in my room, pining away
Thinking about him in my wistful way
Wishing I could change things, make it fine
Go back, give him strength or at least some time

Whatever I did wrong, at ten or twenty
It seems I could've done nothing and it'd be plenty
For his mother to dislike me beyond reason.
So I'm living for myself now, making it my season

He's gotta live his life you know
Make his journey, despite how it feels slow
Whether I'm in the picture in the end
I'll cheer him all the way, even as a friend.

Because I believe in the man he is
And the man he will be, courageous and yes: this
That he's amazing; no slight will I believe
Because with him, my trust I did leave

And I cannot believe that my instincts were wrong
They told me a story so strong
About a man who longed to be free
Of his parents and lies. You see, it wasn't about me.

I'm getting this sneaky peek
An insight into his mind I did seek
The sights open my eyes, albeit reluctantly
I'm accepting this knowledge hesitantly

I dreamed he was noble and true
But I've woken up, now I'm feeling blue
His parting words, he spoke with honesty
Turns out he can deceive flawlessly

Made me believe, what I really wanted to
Doesn't matter I knew better than that tho
He just wanted to break the rules
But couldn't handle the outbreak of whirlpools

I was collateral damage in his war
That he was waging on his own shore
Internal battle, striking out with feeble blows
This round was ceded, but we'll see how the next goes

A hunger for freedom, rid of the lies
An image of perfection, a feeble disguise
Hypocrisy, there's that struggle inside
Trying to figure out which way he'll ride

There's a rebel inside, wanting throw away the shackles
But it's a hard road, with many battles

We're all wrapped up in our own little bubble
Stumbling through our mounds of rubble
Too busy to share, too tired to care
I wanna check out of this life and go elsewhere

Why do we all have to be so selfish?
Peace on earth, this my simple wish
Christians gotta be the example for all
Yet we're worse than the rest: the lies so tall

It's our actions with which we deceive
Break down others without mercy or reprieve
Because it's this image of perfection we protect
It's what we live for; our deadly concept

Break my heart and watch me cry
Walk away and tell me a crazy lie
You say you never cared at all
While you calmly watched me fall

I want to believe what we had was real
That you didn't just do it to throw me off keel
I hoped like I've never hoped before
That it wouldn't leave me feeling broken and raw

That I could believe in good men again
While cynicism got me thinking it's all a sham.
Got me questioning my intuition
Can't help but regard it all with suspicion

I'm getting mixed messages from inside
Reading you got me in knots tightly tied
One half believes you to be who I saw
A man to be proud of, one I'd give all for

Then there's the side that wants to give in
Give in to the hurt and grief, let the pain win
Write you off as a fraud and a fake
An awful good manipulator who I didn't make

And I can't make up my damn mind
Why did I give in, let myself find
That I was missing out on the best
When you're determined to make it out as mere jest

There's a reality we must accept
But at hiding, we are incredibly adept
Fear's got us locked in our own house
Our enthusiasm and happiness it does douse

Let yourself shine, take off that mask
Accept your mistakes, stop taking it to task
It's better to fall 7 times and get up again
Than to fall once, and find to get up you never can

It's so hard for us to accept and embrace
That we're all together in this miserable, painful race
We've all got those flaws we hide inside
Yet we condemn those who let it slide

Fake is the new normal way of living
Bleak is the prospect, with no grace or forgiving
Hope is faded, leaving one and all jaded
Looks are pointed, words sharp, character shaded...

Give in to the tiny rays of hope
Grab on to that lifeline rope
This deep, dark tunnel leads to a light
Walk towards it, watch it get bright

We'll get through if we push hard enough
True character shines through when it gets tough
Be real, let your light blaze and be free
It's about time the truth is freed for all to see