Its been 6 months, in that time that I should've healed
I've tried to move on, I thought by now my heart wouldve steeled
Instead the mere thought of you makes me nauseous, brings me to my knees
I would bleed, I would beg if I thought you would just listen to my pleas
"Sail by ash breeze" is tattooed on my skin
But I cant seem to do that, to my chagrin
Because I'm frozen in time, reliving the feel of that knife
Feeling it cut so deep that its echoed through my whole life
I never thought you would cut me out of your life and heart
But you did and this pain, its eating at me: tearing me apart
I wouldve waited for as long as you needed, wouldve bled for you
But knowing you never wanted me back, I tried to bid you adieu
I tried to move on, but instead I would lay next to him dreaming of you
Instead now I cry with broken sobs to a God that it seems I never knew
I plead for help of any kind, something or someone to save me
But its always on my own that I am, climbing out the debris
You broke so many promises and more than just my heart
But you weren't content to leave it at that, no that was just the start
You stole my God too. You stole my hope. My strength.
I never thought, when you stabbed me in the back that you would go this length
I hope youre happy while youre on earth, happy with your betrayal
Because I hope you burn in hell in the life to come, I hope its abysmal
I hope you feel even a fraction of the pain youve caused us
I hope that one day something bad happens, maybe be hit by a bus
But most of all I hope that youre alright, and instead you make it all right
Because as much as I hate you, I love you just as much still
I hope that one day you wake up and are feeling contrite
I need you to either make it better or just do it, make the final kill
