I'm so torn, don't know my own mind
It's confusing, like I'm walking blind
Could be wrong or it could be right
Just want a path, find and follow the light.

Life has me so unsure and confused
I'm sick of being naive and reused
Trust comes easily and then flees
What if I'm just someone to be used he sees?

I'm scared, oh so fucking scared
Haven't had time to figure it out; prepare
Scenarios and questions tumbling around
Yet fear of looking stupid clamps down the sound

He wants someone who communicates well
I'm not good at that, wish I was - it would be swell
Been told a lack of that broke my last relationship
Tho it was way more than that that made it rip

It comes to my fear though, I'm scared to trust
I've been burnt and my trust has gone to rust
Flame hurts and I've felt the lick on my soul
I know I can dodge the punches, dodge and roll

But I don't want to take the hard road
I'd rather take it easy on the size of my load
Being broken again might make me grow
But I've rather not and instead take my growth slow

What should I do? Decisions allude me
This is hard. All I want is to be free.
On level with marriage, this is I think
Commitment and trust can be gone in a blink

So fragile, it's like a glass flower
Pieces shattered and falling like a shower
Stand on it and feel yourself bleed
Is this what I really need?

What if this is the path life is leading to?
What if it's where I need to go through?
Life is uncharted waters, can't just be scared to drown
Can't go anywhere with the anchor down

Or what if I'm jumping the gun?
What if this is a mistake and I need to run?
I'll won't know which to take, until I take one
And after I've walked through I'll know what I've done.